So I honestly tried to wear Cupcake today, but something odd happened. I put the dress on, and I turned into grumpy Wylie. I took the dress off and felt like calm, peaceful, happy Wylie. Dress on, grumpy, anxious and totally claustrophobic. After much examination and discussion, (even my husband mentioned how crabby I was instantly being) this dress is an all out failure in terms of wear ability. So today I feel like saying F**K this!. I wore my PJ's all day and contemplated what could possibly be the problem with Cupcake?! So here is my list of what I think could be wrong and why compromising for one's art is sometimes total B.S.
1. She is heavy- all the trapunto and stuffing has given a huge amount of weight to the bottom of the dress. This pulls down on my shoulders and back and I have been wondering why my left shoulder feels like there is a knot the size of a small boulder under my shoulder blade.
2. She is too tight- I started this dress off using my own body but then transferred her to the dress form never thinking that I was going to wear it for a month! But here I am, wearing it and it is very constraining. I don't even think I can truly take a deep breath while wearing it- oxygen = happy. The tightness is also making me aware of how my body is not a fan of being snugged in by anything.
3. The top of the dress, the straps and the arm things are all wrong. The construction of this dress is ridiculous! Who would possibly wear a dress with these silly shoulder things? They have to go. The neckline has to get tucked up a little higher and the shoulder straps have to be chopped, I am thinking about maybe turning it into a halter or tie back....
4. The back of the dress is very full, this makes it hard to sit down and even walk without feeling encumbered. HOW THE HELL DID WOMEN DO HOOP SKIRTS?! They must have been crazy! I feel like I have a constant satellite on my behind, not too fun.
5. Although the bottom half of the dress is nice and warm because of the trapunto and layers, the top is so cold. I have a little shrug that I am going to start to incorporate with this dress, but I am also thinking about adding some 3/4 length sleeves. It is still way to cold here to even contemplate going without something over my shoulders and arms.
6. I need something in the middle to help hoist up the bust of this dress, to help carry part of her weight, she is very robust you know and only getting more so with the lace that is soon to be added. I am thinking a bodice of some sort, but then that leads to problems of my body feeling too tied into the garment.
On one hand I am so happy that this dress is looking beautiful, but on the other hand I am asking for what price is beauty worth the sacrifice? I could go even farther and say at what price is art making worth the sacrifice. Cupcake is making me doubt weather or not I can wear a garment like this for a month? I also want to maintain some integrity to the way she started off, with all the work that has already gone into creating her, but I am beginning to wonder if this dress is going to be an example of a drastic reduction?